Crying for help

I have posted in quite some time, and thought that I would give it a try one more time. I'm going to try and make it a regular thing, but just haven't gotten around to it with so many other things going on.

Wow, how things have changed since the last time that I posted. I am no longer dominating the SNG's on Ultimate Bet, nor am I doing very well in the casinos either. I am currently at the lowest point in my short poker career. I am struggling with confidence, and, although I try not to let it affect my play, playing discouraged poker is not playing winning poker.

To give a recap on my last month of playing, I got out for winter break in the middle of December, and played almost every day over break. I started off pretty hot with a few winning sessions, but then just got ran over. The highest point of my break was chopping for first in a $20 MTT on Ultimate Bet for just shy of $600. Since then, everything has been downhill. My bankroll is slowly depleting, and I feel as though there is nothing that I can do right. My Ultimate Bet account has been cancelled, leaving me with the belief that I will never again see the $300+ that was in there. I have had about 7 or 8 losing sessions in a row, and am probably down about $400 in the new year.

I keep telling myself to stay patient and things will turn around, but it is tough. I feel like I should take a break from poker, but it is so hard with the convenience of online poker and the fact that my buddy Grant wants to go to the casino pretty much every night. All I need is one break, and I will be on the rebound, but that seems like such a far sight from where I'm at right now. I can't imagine the struggling poker professionals and the highs and lows endured by them. Let's just say I do not empathize with them.

The good news is, it's not the end of the world. It is only poker, and I may be making a bigger deal out of it than it is, but I am just trying to put my frustrations down on paper. I appreciate anyone that reads these blogs, and I hope that it gives you a glimpse into the life of a poker player living at college.

God Bless,
JG