Meeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhh...

Well...things haven't been going great at all poker-wise. I have been a little bit busy with these 4-week classes that I'm taking, so I haven't had a whole lot of time/desire to grind it out. I am at the part of my poker career right now where I just expect to have consistent big scores weekly with little to no effort which is how I swear it used to be. But they're just not coming.

I had to make a withdrawl from UB last week to help pay for Seahawks season tickets (WHOOOO!!!) which I was pretty pumped about. Derek and I will be splitting two tickets in the Hawks nest, which is my favorite place and sweetest atmosphere in the stadium. They are only 4 rows up from the main concourse for $1400, which was quite a steal IMO.

Since then I have actually been a little tight financially since I haven't had any big scores in the past couple months. After spending the $700 on Hawks tickets, my checking account was dangerously low while waiting for my UB check to come. Right now I have about $2kish on FTP and a little over $1k on UB. I am really contemplating withdrawing like $1500 on FTP to live off of for the rest of the summer and then just going back to grinding out some lower BI MTT's for a while once school rolls around.

It is sad to think that I may not be able to get through another year of college without working and just playing poker. With the stakes that I am playing, I would have to devote a good 25-30 hours a week to poker, and that is something that I just simply do not have the time for, nor do I think I am dedicated enough to do. It's not like my confidence is all gone, but I am just putting an unhealthy amount of pressure on myself that it is hard to have success.

Last night was quite silly. After a presentation and filming a movie, I went and played golf with Grant which was awesome. I have made a ton of swing changes lately that I hope will eventually get me to where I was late in HS. I feel like I am close but just haven't been able to put together a solid 18 holes yet.

After golf, we came back home and hung out for a while. Then Grant and Heather went out, so I decided to hop on and play some SNG's on FT. I bought in for a $30 9-seat and a $30 18-seat. In the 18-seat, I completed AJss from the SB with like 4 limpers. Flop came 7s 3s 3x. I checked, and it checked to the c/o limper who bet 80 into a 150. I decided to raise to 220. EP limper flatted, better mucked. Turn 8s, and I lead 300 into a 750. He flats, and I am now suspicious of 77733 or 3333 but can't really do anything. River 6s and I ship in 900 into a 1200, and he snaps with 3333 :( Not really sure if there is much I can do in that hand. He could easily show up with a dry 3 or a lower flush, but meh, whatever.

I then just lost it and raised A10hh from the button in the 9-seat behind a c/o limper. Flop came 9s 5h 3h, and he moves in for 1k into a 500 and without thinking I snap call and he shows A5dd, and I brick. I'm not sure what happened there, but it was evident that I let the other hand get to me psychologically.

I then decided to sit down at a .5/1 HU Deep table and lost $200 after 3 people sat in and tag-teamed me LAWL!

Oh well, it didn't really phase me that bad which is probably a bad thing. I am getting a little bit careless with my depleting roll. I will try to get in the right psychological state Friday once classes are over and I have nothing else to think about.

Until then, gl to everyone.

God Bless,

JG